I had an epiphany today while working out. I tend to act sort of aloof. For those who aren't sure, it means to be cold and distant. I realized I behave this way as a way of keeping people at length. I am very reserved. I fear being hurt by people. Some of it comes from a couple of run-ins with teachers from school when I was younger. These incidents hurt me a lot. I've always been shy and unsure of my self in the first place, then a teacher tells me there's something wrong with me? The one that was the worst was in art class we were drawing a picture. I drew a drag car. big tires and high in the back, small tires and low in the front. I wasn't the best picture, but it was elementary school after all. She told cars don't look like that! She was almost pissed about it! A girl, Lisa, came to my defence, but the damage was done. I was told that my creation, my expression of my own was wrong. I find dealing with people quite taxing. If I could afford it I would become a Hikikomori(wiki it if you're unsure what it means). It would be soo awesome! This came after I realized that I've said pretty much nothing to my classmates at school. It's been over a week and I've spoken to none of them and I like it that way. There was a lyric from the end on an Anthrax song years ago. "It's not that I hate people, i just like 'em better when they're not around". Preach on brother.
Psst..... Click on the picture. You REALLY should click on it!
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