The American media has lost its collective mind....

I think it's safe to say that the media in this country has truly gone around the bend. Thursday, Feb, 25th NBC Nightly News aired a segment in the MIDDLE of the broadcast proclaiming that the First family had narrowed down their choice regarding the breed to get for the "first dog". Is this really news?! No, not in the least. If it had been done at the end of the show as time filler, I guess that would've been okay. But in the middle? This hardly qualifies as real news. Must've been a slow day in the newsroom. Would they've reported that the Bush's had gotten a new first dog. Maybe at the close, where such news should be, if at all, but not the middle. And they claim to be unbiased. On that note have you ever noticed when charges of liberal media bias are raised, liberals come back with: "Oh yeah? What about Fox News?!". Notice, They don't deny it....Anyways. Look, I understand that the press is happy, no make that ecstatic to have a liberal back in the White House after 8 years of Bush. But for fucks sake, enough is enough all ready!! They've jacked themselves off plenty long enough over Obama. This is yet more evidence that the media in this country is becoming irrelevant.

I don't get this......

Sorry about this, but this a quick anime figure rant. I just won a Max Factory Ryomou Shimei figure for $22 + sh. Last week I won a Kanu Unchou figure, the same series, by Max Factory as well for $11. What the fuck! The Kanu ones start at $9.99 and except for the auction I won, the Roymou ones start at $22+. I don't get it. Same series, same size, but different characters. The weird thing is that Kanu is the more popular character of the two. So much for the laws of supply and demand. Whatever, at least I have 'em to add to the collection. Peace out G'.

Farting on heated seats..........

Okay, I know this is a little tastless, but while "droping ass" in a car sorta concetrates the stench anyways, it seems the smell worsens when done on heated seats. Or am I the only one who thinks this? I know it's not possible for the "dropped ass" to smell worse simply because it was done on a heated seat. It just seems that way. Maybe because it's cold, the air is more dense(the seats are turned on-it must be cold....), thus making the stench more concentrated. More stink molecues per million would make it seem to smell worse. Check me out! I'm a fuckin' genius! I guess all those years weren't wasted in school..........

Skyline/GT-R - WRX sti - Lancer Evo. Pfft, Whatever!

Okay, Is it just me or is everyone else tired of people jacking-off over cars like those listed in the post title? Don't get me wrong. These cars bring some awesome numbers to the table, but I constantly see poeple touching themselves over these cars like they're the best thing since the wheel was invented. You fucking douchebags! I don't give a damn how great you think the GT-R is. Without the AWD, that car ain't shit. And there you have it, the real reason behind their "awesomeness"! None of these cars is anything to write home about with the AWD factor. They'd be just another factory hot rod.
What got me going on this is on a "cars" forum board at crunchyroll.com, a member asked what other's favorite car is, the thread poster said she liked Mustangs. One wanker replied, "The Skyline, Blah, blah, blah, blah, will take any Mustang. You know what dumbass? What if the Mustang came with AWD? Would your precious Skyline be really that bad? I think not.
The vehicle that drives my point home is the GMC Syclone. A pick-up with a turbo'd, aftercooled 4.3 V6 mated to an AWD transfer case using standard S-truck 4WD drivetrain. This 'lil monster ground out 280hp & 350 ft.lbs. turning 1/4 mi times of 13.4 sec. A pick-up! Without the AWD, this truck wouldn't of been anything. Could you imagine trying to launch a short-box mini-truck making 350 ft.lbs. of torque! Good luck on that one!
Granted, most, no that's wrong, all of the morons who blindly think these cars are the cats ass are really car posers. By that, I mean they are the kind of person who reads Motor Trend and/or Car & Driver magazines and that is the extent of their knowledge. Not book smart, but magazine dumb. They read these magazines and think they know everything there is to know and they treat it like gospel all meanwhile driving 90 hp Civic. Yeah, you're the man, you Fast n Furious reject......

Betcha' I'm more weird than you!

Catgirls.....Damn, I love Catgirls! I'm infatuated by them, obssesed with them. To provide a bit of bacground for those of you not in the know, I'm refering to the anime genre of Catgirl. These females are typicaly cute rather than beautiful, but there are, of course, exceptions to this. These girls fall into one of two catagories. First type is a female(obviously...) character wearing a ears and a tail, as though it was part of a costume. For example see Ryomou Shimei in the final episode of "Ikki Tousen: Dragon Destiny". Better yet, in this scene she's wearing a maid outfit with the ears and tail. Bonus points!!!! The second type is a human/feline hybred, a human with fully functioning ears and tail. For example see Koshka in "Usagi-chan de Cue" Wow! Uberhot!

As my interest grew beyond infatuation, bordering on obsession, I've begun to wonder how this came to be. When did it begin? and Why? While totally fictional, the second group appeals to me the most. There's something REALLY cool about a frighteningly cute girl with fully functioning cat ears and tail. Nyaa Baby! Nyaa!

If my memory serves correct, my situation owes its roots to the previously mentioned Koshka from "Usagi-chan de Cue". Koshka was and still is the hottest catgirl I've seen to date. Even better is the fact that she's a type two catgirl!Sometime after seeing this anime I began searching for catgirl figures for my collection and wandering the internet for catgirl images. This led me down the past to where I am today.

As for "why", it's not so cut and dried. Honestly I don't have a clue why. Maybe it's a sign of some sort of insanity, psycosis, or some other mental instability? Could it be a mask for some larger psychologocal issue? Most likely I like it because I do. Maybe I'm just weird like that. This would make the most sense, because the preceeding statement can be applied to every other facet of my life.

My love for Catgirls has reached heights where, if money holds out this year, I'm going to get a "CATGRLS" vanity plate for the drift car. Weird? Yeah, probably. But, then again you should thank me for being weird, because if it wasn't for me, you could've been chossen to be the weird one.

Well Rideback ep.5 is ready and I need to drop a deuce before. So, Jaa mata ato de!

People suck, work's boring, Kanu-sama & Ryomou-sama wa totemo kirei na onna desu!

1.While there are A LOT of attractive characters in anime and many of those are merely cute, the most beautiful are Ryomou Shimei and Kanu Unchou of Ikki Tousen, seen above. To date there have been three seasons of it along with some of the most ecchi OVA's I've ever seen. Really the show is only worth watching because of the female characters and the gratuitous fanservice. Plot?...Yeah, right. Fight scenes?...kinda lame...Copious amounts of T&A?...Oh fuck yeah! I'm currently on the prowl for a figure of each to add to the collection. It should come as no suprise that the ones I'd like to obtain are the Kanu-catgil and Ryomou-catgirl maid figures, but these are too pricey at this time to add to the collection. You know, the collection that will keep me from getting laid if any woman were to see it.

2. People really do suck. The drive into work today reminded just how true the preceeding statement is. Two weeks away from those doche bags wasn't near long enough! Yes, I'm still bitching how much people CAN'T drive to save thier lives. I'm not going to bore you with examples, because I KNEW this is the way it would go today.

3. Work was just a boring as I suspected it was going to be. To say we were really, really, really fuckin' slow,....would be an understatement. I began to wonder if this whole rolling lay-off thingy is a way to see how the absence of each employee affects the operation of the branch. Hence, who will get the chop when the time comes.....And it will.

Okay, that's enough of this crap for one day. I'd like to type more, but Kurokami is ready to go and I need to get some sleep in preparation of 8 hours of mind-numbing bordom tomorrow. I know I said coming soon my take on religon, but add to that: Oil companies and oil prices. Also, I'll try to sort out my infatuation with catgirls. I'm out!

Where did the time go?......

It's with sad heart that my lay-off has come to an end. I don't really want it to continue, because even Pres. Obama says this year (economicaly speaking) is going to suck and despite whatever the Pres. says reality is always worse. So, despite this rolling lay-off deal, I think someone's gonna get clubbed with an indefinate lay-off at work. And with something like that rumbling in our direction, you don't want to be seen as a guy who doesn't want to work. That said monday morning I'm off for 40 hours of boredom next week.

Saddly I didn't get to watch as much anime as I wanted. I did finish "Kurau: Phantom Memory" and "Venus versus Virus", both rather good series. I made a point to watch "Elfen Lied". That was today for, like, 6 hours. It was AWESOME!!! The show was just as emotionaly impacting as it was the first time I watched it. It does end well, but it was still very sad overall. Having been pretty beaten down by life for most of my 40 years, it takes a lot to make me cry and you'd need both hands to count the times I teared up watching this. It's just that well done. I noticed even the background animation is excellent. In laymans terms, IT'S JUST A FUCKING AWESOME SHOW. It's taken me a few years to get around to watching it again and it was well worth the wait. Well, I'm out. Short post, I know, but it's not like you're paying for this......

I'm not like the others.............

After finishing my reading this morning, but still in bed, I glanced over at my bookcase, fixating my gaze on all the manga I have. Then I looked at the anime I've yet to watch in the DVD storage unit, next to it. I thought, How does a grown man of 40 end up sharing an interest with other people, who for the most part, are less than half his age. I've been to JAFAX a couple of times and I always notice that I'm surrounded by people young enough to my kids, but yet we share a common interest. This fact really hammers home the fact that I'm very different from the rest of you. And then there's all the figures I have as well. Those defy explanation the most. I take some measure of pride in my collection, but at the same time, I know full well if a woman was ever to see them, there would be no chance of a second date....I'm unable to explain how any of this came to be. Hell, I've been in to anime for only four years now! It's not like I've been doing this since I was kid. It snuck up on me one day and clubbed me over the head. My love for anime has grown to the point that it's all I watch anymore, save for "Heroes". It's hard enough to find someone I'd like to share the remainder of my life with, but this interest of mine will always the deal killer. Somewhere there has to be a woman who doesn't see this as a negative, There just has to be....

Quagmire of my existence

Today is wendsday, as you can see by the posting info at the end. I was laying in bed, around 9:00, after reading for an hour or so. I realized that, as much as I don't really what to, it'll be good to go back to work. Yesterday, I began to notice myself "stagnating". Other than hitting a couple of bookstores, in search of some new manga titles, and stopping at the grocery store, I did pretty much nothing. There are some things I'd like to acomplish this week yet and it's clear I'm going to have to "crack the whip" on myself to get them done. I need to clean the house and I'd like to finish the catgirl figure as well.
I play the lottery quite a bit and like anyone, I'd REALLY love to hit it big. However, I know that winning the lottery would be bad for me. How can I know this? There is a condition, known as "Hikikomori". According to Wikipedia, the definition is this: "Although there are occasions where the hikikomori may venture outdoors, usually at night to buy food, the Japanese Ministry of Health, Labour and Welfare defines hikikomori as individuals who refuse to leave the house, and isolate themselves from society in their homes for a period exceeding six months. While the degree of the phenomenon varies depending on the individual, some youths remain in isolation for years, or in rare cases, decades." This is what would become of me if I won the lottery. And you know what? I'd love it. While a Japanese issue for the most part, being a Hikikomori, I see a lot of the traits of this condition in myself. I'm not saying it's any kind of medical condition, I'm simply using "condition" for my own reference to it. If it wern't for needing to work, in order to pay bills, I'd never go outside. Not in the day anyways. When I go to the store or run errands, I prefer to go early or late, when there's far fewer people around.
Dealing with people brings me untold amounts of stress and anxiety. I prefer the saftey and comfort bottled up inside the house. I believe a lot of this manifests itself from the caustic mix of low(low? try non-existent) self-esteem, shyness, being very reserved, along with Depression. Leaving me full of self-loathing and feeling like I don't belong and don't deserve to. I don't mention any of this to my family, because they've enough on their own plates. I know they would drop what they're doing to help me, but I don't want to trouble them. This is the way I've always done things. Not wanting to be a bother, not wanting to inconvienince others. Prefering to try to deal with it on my own(more like ignoring). On the other hand, this very behavior is probably why I've become such an emotional and pschycological(?) train wreck.
One might think that others would surely see signs of my suffering. Maybe with others, but I'm too smart for my own good. Over the years I've developed the ability to "fly below the radar". I've been like this for so long that others see this facade I put on as who I really am. You know, smiling on the outside, but dying on the inside.
Some years ago, I had a brush with suicide. As much as reliving that momment scares me, I think that one day it will win out in the end. I can clearly envision the day when I will get up one day and ,simply, not want to do this anymore. The only thing that keeps me believing in God, is my desire for there to really be an afterlife and it has to be better than being here.

Is it wrong to enjoy being laid-off?

Goddamn! Week two of my vacation....(cough, cough), I mean lay-off and I'm lovin' it! Another week not having to drive into work with all those fucking morons. Another week not spent freezing my ass off bored out of my mind in the warehouse! I'm soo tempted to call work and see if I can serve the next guys lay-off for him..... It's monday, now, and earlier today My friend and I got the engine back in my car. The only thing I'm lacking is the new radiator and water pump, followed by breaking the new cam in. Unfortunately I'm about $450 short of this goal. We also got the hyd. e-brake bleed out and it feels sweet! I can't wait to try it out.
I watched President Obama's press conference tonight. While he said some things that appealed to me, a lot of it sounded like the same political psycho-babble that every other polititian before him befuddled us with. He talked a good game and it'd be great if he is everything people make him out to be, but after listening to what he said earlier, he sounds more like just another bland product from the washington political machine. Is anyone else tired of the way people jack themselves off over Obama? Especially the press, they're the worst.

Anyways, Rideback ep.4 is ready to go, so as the Japanese say: "Jaa mata ato de!"

Gonna be gettin' my dork on....

Next week for the second half of my vacation,...err, I mean layoff, I'm going to use that time to watch a ton of anime, I've been adding to my DVD collection for some time now that I've yet to watch. I'm also going to watch Elfen Lied, undenyably the best one I've ever seen. It's soo good, I got a vanity plate of it for my drift car! It's an amazingly sad show that shows the lives of the main characters ruined by no fault of their own. You could almost classify it as a romantic tragedy with a science fiction twist. The ending song, "Lilium", is of the saddest I've ever heard. I've been trying to get around to watching this again for some time now. Elfen Lied is the title that blew anime up big for me. It's kinda gory, but this doesn't detract from the show. If you ever get the chance, and are able to get past the stigma that you're watching a cartoon, watch it. You won't regret it.

I think a big reason why I've gotten into watching soo much anime, is that in most shows I've come across a character, or sometimes, multiple characters who I can relate to. The one I relate to the most is Shinji Akari from Neon Genisis Evangelion. The show was awesome, but there were times I found VERY difficult to watch. It hit soo close to home. It was like watching my life on TV. For someone so reserved and private as myself, it was kinda hard to handle. Really freaky shit.

I tend to be drawn to "Harem" anime as well. This is where a male lead ends up surrounded by, often hot and/or cute, female characters who just adore the guy. Alot of times the females dote over the male and can act subservant as well. I think detractors of this genre think people who watch like the aspect of being surrounded by a bunch of female slaves. Not me, though. I don't want a harem of female slaves, I just wish I had someone who viewed me as that important to themselves. The women are never bothered by the guys weird, odd, unusual behavior or interests; they see beyond those things, to the person he really is.... Unlike real people. Well I'm going to stop here as I sense the mood of this post is about to head in a direction I don't feel like dealing with today. Hell, I'm on vacation here! Who wants to bummed out thinking about how lonely it feels being left out of life because you're so different from others.

What a pain in the ass............

I filed my unemployment claim today. It only took, like three hours. First for whatever reason, I couldn't do it on the internet. After calling for about an hour, I filed my claim with an operator. When I finished, she transfered me to where I was supposed to enter my direct deposit info. But I never got there, because I was disconnected. Just fucking great! I called back for another hour, finally getting through. When I entered my soc. sec. number, I was told that it didn't match any claims. Fuckin' A! Even better! By this time, my call window had closed, leaving with little recourse until thursday or friday, when there is open calling. I'm going to keep trying the automated phone system in the hope that my claim will be recognized, so I can enter the deposit info. I can't get my coin if they don't know where to send it....How is someone supposed to find a job when you have to spend so much time trying to get unemployment benefits? Like the title says: What a pain in the ass!

Coming soon: My take on organized religon!(this is gonna get ugly!)